Dear Vivienne,
I’ve struggled with the right words to write you this
letter. I wrote it over & over in my head, but somehow everything
came out sounding fearful about not getting to meet you. You see, we’ve
been waiting for you for quite some time...longer than just these last ten
months. From the time we found out you were in my tummy, we’ve had a few
scares and I was just so scared that I wouldn’t get to meet you. Now,
we’re just seven days from meeting each other face-to-face. I’ve talked
to you all this time and I know you’ve heard me as you’ve tapped my hand when I
place it on my belly to talk to you.
Many people say that married people should not have kids to
feel complete, but I disagree with them. First, I could not wait for your
big sister to be born…and she undoubtedly brought a new level of living to your
dad’s and my life. As soon as we recovered from sleepless nights with her
as a newborn, I knew we were still an incomplete family. You have been
patiently waiting for us too. Your life and how you came to be is a
miracle. You came from your dad and me and modern medicine helped us
along so that you would flourish, first with your sister…and then with
you. You are that much more special because you came to be in this world
at the same time as your big sister. In some ways, the two of you are
like twins, who have not been able to be with each other for 4 years. I
think both of you sense that. Anytime we worry about you being too sleepy
in my tummy or not kicking enough, we have your sister come and talk to you and
you immediately start to kick or move. I think you already have a magical
bond, and I’m so grateful for you to have each other. For the last month,
one of the first things she asks about when she wakes up is if today will be
the day she gets to meet you. We can’t wait to have you home with
us. We already love you so much. We all talk about taking you to
the park, to restaurants, on fun family trips…we are ready for you to arrive
and finish off our little family puzzle.
Know how special you are in our home. You are not only
the baby of the family and someone’s little sister, you are the person who’s
personality and interests we can’t wait to mold for. Your dad and I changed
so much when your big sister was born. We changed even more as she grew
up and developed her own interests and personality. We’re ready for
another wave of changes…inspired by you. I know you will make us all be
better. You already inspired your sister’s protective nature. She
already talks about taking care of you and defending you. You have
inspired me to become more organized and to be the healthiest version of myself
possible…because I’ll have to be to stay ahead of you two girls!
We are not making room for you in our lives, family and
home. It has always been yours and we are just now getting to have you
take that rightful place where you’ve always belonged. Before your sister
was born, I wrote her a letter similar to this where I told her I was terrified
of having a daughter. Now, I know in my heart of hearts, I was meant to
have two daughters. With the amount of love and strength I get from the
two of you, I feel invincible. I feel like I could move mountains for the
two of you. Your dad jokes about being outnumbered, but I tell him I see
this as such a gift for him, for me, for your sister…
Getting to watch two strong, fierce & independent women
grow up in our home is going to be the greatest gift of our lives. Thank
you for being.
Love,
Mom
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